Although, I help coordinate some of the logistics for the teams, the teams are self-sufficient. The only teams that I “lead” are the ones coordinated by my dad. These weeks seem to move at a rapid pace and we never have people complaining about too much down time.
After one of the trips, I was reflecting on the events of the week. I made the comment to Soy “I do not feel there was any spiritual change in the lives of the people”. Soy’s response, “This is because you move so fast that you do not allow the Holy Spirit time to speak. Your time schedule is too important”. I had a lot to say to Soy about this comment. I didn’t ask him to be the Holy Spirit. There was no need for him to point out the obvious. I stayed silent because I knew he was right (although I would not give him the satisfaction of acknowledging that he was exactly right).
I do not like silence. It is awkward sitting at a table or riding in a car with silence. This is true in my relationship with Jesus Christ also. I start to get nervous and anxious if the Lord is silent. I want everything to move at a rapid pace. Yet the reality is that many times I do not hear the Holy Spirit speak because I am too focused on my time schedule.
Over the past twenty months, I have asked the Lord to constantly remind that He is not working on my time schedule. To remind me of His presence in the details of life. To cause me to stop in the busyness of life to hear His voice. To not feel the need to always have my calendar filled with things that are really not important. To not focus on the temporal things instead of the eternal things. To be content with sitting in silence. To hear the whispers of God while I am still.
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